Today, I spent a couple of hours sitting on rocks at the beach pondering my life and my feelings. I wrote in my journal. Quite profound stuff, really.
I felt doubt about choices; uncertainty about the right path to take. I wanted life (and food) to be easy. Having missed lunch and it being nearly 4 p.m., I went shopping. This is what I got:
I admit today’s grocery bag was still off kilter. What’s so bad about these items? Well, it’s the Doritos, mainly. Chocolate, I allow, although it’s usually organic milk or dark.
My ordinary diet would include occasional tuna. I’d have salad, but buy organic greens, and certainly not one packaged with dressing and croutons. I avoid tins unless they have BPA-free lining (and even then, must have organic contents, no MSG and very limited beans and legumes). Nuts, including peanuts, are okay every now and again. Sea salt is okay. It’s that these are roasted with highly processed canola and soybean oil.
Of these, tonight’s dinner was the caesar salad with a side of Zesty Cheese Doritos.
I only ate a couple of those croutons. I realized as I began to eat, that I actually did not need or want those. The Doritos were a bit difficult to stop once I started. I still had chocolate left from the other day, but by the end of the evening, I dipped into one of the new bars, too.
*sigh!*
Here’s hoping for a better day tomorrow.
© July 13, 2013 | Annie Zalezsak
